Back from 2 week vacation in Cape Town which was totally reviving.
It’s amazing how unknowable levels of stress are in London. It takes 3 full days in a warm, relaxed place (or a monastery) to even realize how stressed you’ve become.
But by the last week I was sleeping under the stars in the Cedarberg in a cave and bathing in mountain streams. It was beautiful and emotional. In fact the whole trip pulled lots of adolescent emotions to the surface. I’m not sure why. Perhaps it was the fact the Carey and Gary were both plugging back into the South Africa of their childhood. Perhaps it was the Epstein book. In any case I was glad to be feeling all that stuff again.
I felt excitedly alive for the first time in a while and poised for something new to unfold.